A lot of things can happen in a week, so I know what notes in front of me are nothing shocking. A planner full of upcoming events, talking points and ideas for the evening show, music that still needs to be listened to–a little overwhelming after not having a full-time job in awhile. A little bit of panic starts to settle in, while thoughts of, “I don’t know if I’ll be good enough for this all” fall upon me. It’s like jumping into the freezing cold lake, hitting you all-too-suddenly! But I know, in my heart-of-hearts, I’d rather take this overwhelming feeling after the first week of a FANTASTIC job then be at a stand-still for one moment longer.
As I stated earlier this week, I can’t say “Thank You” enough to every single person who has made me feel so welcomed and who have supported me in this journey that God has placed my husband and I on. It’s definitely been a week full of food, phone calls, and fun music that I can’t wait to talk about and dissect. The reality that this job is real, tangible, and something I’ll be going to every week is hitting me over and over again tonight, and I’m nothing but blessed! Yes, I know that there will be times that I’ll want to hide and cry, and times that I may want to scream outside in the parking lot. But I also know that through all of it, every step I take as a DJ and Music Director, our Father is guiding me, not my own self. So as I focus on this, I breathe a sigh of relief and get back to the mic!
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